As We Age

Physically broken…

'Have mercy on me, Lord , for I am in distress. Tears blur my eyes. My body and soul are withering away. I am dying from grief; my years are shortened by sadness. Sin has drained my strength; I am wasting away from within. ' Psalms 31:9-10

my wife has been struggling with health issues for some time now and recently i’ve dealt with covid and a back injury that has left me laid up. won’t lie, it does suck being hurt.

part of the issues for me is not being able to help my wife because i’m physically struggling, while the biggest concern is for her long-term health and the uncertainty of how long she can deal with the pain and when the time comes when she may not be able to walk because of it.

while i have and continue to pray for her recovery, it is being patient and waiting on The Lord that has challenged me. it is hard to see your life partner suffer and you are powerless to do anything about it. no medication or doctor can cure her, only the touch of Jesus will do it.

difficulty lies in knowing that as we do get older that your body does break down and real challenges physically is a reality. just wish/want it to slow down.

in this verse it does talk about sin that saps one’s strength. if i dwell on this i would have no energy as i know i where i still fail and fall short. don’t focus too much on this as it diverts my attention to what God still has in store for me/us.

while i realize that there’s nothing i can do about aging, i can do better on taking care of myself physically. while the past couple months i’ve been on the large commercial and other smaller projects, i stopped working out and at times not stretching which i know that played a role.

sadness sucks because it saps all the good out of you and strength. try not to stay in that place mentally because it really doesn’t do anything for me - it really brings me down and i find myself not wanting to do anything.

i do know that i can do things to help myself physically - start training again, go back to jiu jitsu, jump in the water, the things that i enjoy and does my body good. mentally - continue reading, listening, and learning. emotionally - stay connected to the people i love and be available. spiritually - to develop a deeper and meaningful relationship with God, Jesus, and The Holy Spirit; this is the most important part, and one which i know is a work-in-progress.

dear Heavenly Father, i thank you that in this reflection point i still know you are in control. that in your timing sachi will be healed. more importantly is for her and yujin to know you, Jesus, as their personal Lord and Savior. i can deal with the physical pain, just them not knowing you is too much to bear and i’m asking for you, through Your Spirit, to reveal yourself to them. this will bring the emotional, mental, physical, and spiritual healing that those who don’t know you need. i am asking, in expectation, that you will do this. in your Holy and Precious name, Jesus, i pray, amen!